grieving a suicide death of my son

[MuseRider]

27. In my experience

there is ALWAYS something you can do from just small things like keeping things clean and organized (a real difficult project sometimes) to the larger things that are probably already handled but never the less, anything you do is helpful and you will make new friends by joining together.

BTW, talking is good for you. As long as you want to, find one of the grieving forums here and go for it. Everyone understands and will listen and maybe help you feel a little better from time to time.

Having this work that you believe in will get you out of bed, dressed and thinking in future ways. It in no way will stop your grief or make it better, you just have to go through that but it can make your life amazing in ways you cannot imagine.

My wonderful brother died, almost 20 years ago now, in my arms of AIDS. I spent a couple of years doing what I had to but was so totally out of touch with anything but sadness. All of a sudden there was a big move in my state to create a state wide LGBTQ+ group. I jumped into it and spent years working in it. I made friends by the tons who I still love with all my heart. They took this know-nothing straight sister of a dead brother and held my hands and encouraged me and my life has never been better. Of course as they say, ymmv. It was also not my son. Big difference. I say go for it, jump in with both feet and pick up trash in the office, stack papers, type/organize, progress and help them keep going. It cannot hurt. I am so sorry. I have 2 sons and cannot imagine your pain.