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5. I cannot keep lying anymore-this is stupid and pointless and was since 2011

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It looks like junk that came out of China, Russia or the MiddleEast with the creepiest Americans and Indians onboard destroying the constitutions of both countries in any real sense.

I have been lying nonstop for the the last 6 years and I cannot do it anymore. This worthless trash started in Sept 2011.

I am wrapping this up with this final post (or maybe one or two more tops..no more. I am going offline to finish a paper and then pressing charges and filing complaints). And staying off DU and the web going forward.

I am really sorry. But I owe you (DU and society- the honest, truly democratic and enlightened parts of it honesty as a human being and as a scientist- it is poisoning my insides this double sided trash - faux hardcore from one and community of bs from the other depleting my resources. My main mentor was very cool. He wasn’t like the people I from my last job. He was cool - not a parasite and a creep).

I am not very pure or moral I suppose so this has been a real strain on me.
And yet I haven’t even done anything like engage in misconduct or fraud. If you are a nosy, religious misogynist, I have not engaged in infidelity or promiscuity - not that it is any of your bloody business.
But at least have an accurate picture. It is just Reefer Madness used to slime a complainant who wants to report serious misconduct in human subject research, malpractice in psychiatry, harassment and exploitation.

I would not do sleazy, shady shit like bang creeps while married. My ex is my best friend. We split up because most of our marriage was like a debate I saw between Matt Stoller and Alex Karakatsanis. We remain family. We just weren’t compatible as a couple.
But going through a divorce when taken hostage by obviously regressive, gross, creepy and backward “scientists” in Si valley and then a whole slew of pointless bs after with fraud after fraud piling on. It is not “beaglegate”.
When I file complaints it will be properly with scientists like my main mentor guiding me. Not some creeps who pull that beaglegate shit.
Science isn’t a cult or a mob endeavour.

But it is disgusting that you try to peddle your extremely backward worldview and snooping as medicine and science. This is the Google and Facebook parasites exploiting the paranoia about publicly funded science that those corrupt prostitutes of Stanford etc shill via RetractionWatch along with that ass Ioannidis, while in any real way engaged in serious misconduct. As all of the methods pioneered by Google, Facebook, the MIT Media lab etc are misconduct unambiguously.
And it is as creepy and bad here in India or worse. There are no good guys.

The worst is the types who are all “I have my ethics so I don’t take money from Epstein!”
That’s the bare minimum.

Ethics it seems. Look at yourselves. I have never seen such corrupt and trashy institutions in the pay of an even sleazier and more corrupt private sector.
Looking across the board it is an embarrassment. The few people I tend to trust are on the left solo.
But overall everywhere it is this surfeit of stupidity and sleaziness.

I found my field late. I was defrauded of some 25-35 k by an elite EECS dept in the US in the Fall of 2000-Winter 2001. I was not that interested in EE though I went into it out of interest in physics in high school. I should have majored in physics instead.
There was no meaningful guidance and it was boring. I stumbled into a field I loved - biophysics-by accident but it was uphill throughout. Then I joined a really cool postdoc lab. I loved my mentor not like Stockholm Syndrome or like these creepy Google misogynists who bang their mentees and bosses.
He is like family. Such a decent feminist man unlike this parasitic creep collective since Sept 2011 but bts probably 2009.
But it is all the same..white, nonwhite, male, female, republican, democrat..just self serving parasites, Indian or American.
And you get called crazy.

I would rather the corrupt and sleazy stay away from me than force me to report them.

Because- yeah I use pot and I can stop. I am not going to because there is no “we”. There are many individuals and communities that I can tolerate within reason. This is not reasonable.

I find that I don’t buy any of the bullshit narratives humans find safety in, because I do not find safety in them.
But I have not engaged in misconduct and that was my only contract.
My private habits are none of anyone’s business.
Only depraved women enable tbe creeps who sold this and shill it as medicine and science. I don’t want to join any cult. But I am filing criminal charges mainly locally.

And as for the rest. I have a headache.

I am unambiguously reporting everything I have seen in India between Dec 2012 and the present and going forward as barbaric misconduct in human subject research (especially the misogynistic, stalkerish, harassing criminal trash that involved my street between 2023 and the present in India as I was mourning my mom who died because of the ramping up of this hateful criminal disgusting growthist trash. The sheer greed and avarice. My mom and I were close. The world we live in was built by all those ppl and they continue social engineering and lies. Of course the way more undemocratic, sexist gop easily games that when some conviction less blah, insipid and stupid ppl are the other side like those trashy parasites from my last job.
I don’t hate those ppl individually but not hating them is in itself a full time job).

I do not support anything tied to Substack, Tata, Jio, Microsoft, SBI Card, Effective Altruism, Google, Facebook, Blackstone Inc, any ai, defense contracting etc.
Best case I can cooperate with Apple India, minus a whole bunch of super annoying people

Actually nothing. I am filing complaints with no holds barred.

I am really sorry Dave. It is not DU. To the extent that I can stand the web at all anymore, DU came closest. And cleverbot was okay. I just cant stand this anymore. It messes with the head and I hate the humans so much.

These are hard times. But what I have seen this starting from 2011, though really (2009) - probably Facebook and Google being embraced in fairness by the Obama admin. It may have started under Bush, but the earliest signs I saw of it irl were in 2009. {EasyA -lemonsqueeze pattern. Not happening bro. Better than Joseph Smith fans is not a ringing endorsement. No Everett-Wheeler Telephone. I process you all as scam callers}.
Just something I saw in 2009 where almost certainly the data-mining version of this started:

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/university-north-texas-corpses-dissected-unclaimed-bodies-rcna170478

https://www.digitalhealth.net/2018/04/facebook-approached-us-medical-academies-about-sharing-patient-data/

‘Predators’

Yet Smith suggested that Facebook’s objectives had been “dressed up”.

He said: “People tell their doctors their most intimate details in order to receive appropriate care. Predators see that as an opportunity to make money off people’s misfortunes and fears.

“There are legitimate uses of data; generally, they don’t involve Facebook or Google, which primarily seek to make money off data.”

Facebook has been universally savaged after revelations that it allowed research firm Cambridge Analytica to harvest data on users without their permission.

This data was then used by the firm to target users with politically-driven content that may have influenced voting decisions during the 2016 US presidential election.

Regarding the risks associated with handing patient data to Facebook and fellow digital monoliths, Smith said: “The only way to avoid the concern about dodgy is deals is for absolute transparency: every patient should be able to see every way their medical record is used, and every company looking at getting health data should expect that transparency.”

https://www.salon.com/2025/02/27/chris-hayes-salon-talks/

You can start to scale this sort of social tent. Imagine people friending you six months before an election and they're talking to you. You have shared interests and then they start to say things about the election and they're kind of trying to drive you toward a certain point of view. And then it turns out, "Oh, that's just an AI bot that was deployed at scale." There are serious ethical questions here.

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And certainly I don’t like Trump or the GoP etc either. But I am careful to be more polite initially or guarded in my language in speculating re people I disagree with even more.

But politics don’t apply much irl as it is one thing to vote or irl tolerate ppl at a distance.

This is the worldview of eternally poor and improvident people-conservative and breeders in general and no. There is poverty you cannot help. This is the PMC class breeder of the Cato Koch type inflicting eternal growthist, overpopulation friendly poverty. That creep Brian Keegan is the type. A bullshit job peddling douche attacking Paul Ehrlich. These societies are built on ugly callous parasitic lies.

I do not have a transactional view of reality. And I have seen this for too long and from left to right I do not buy any of it.

I truly dont buy any of this as good science or medicine or useful tech. It is creepy and harassing and as time goes on and I get back to my old self fully, I start to lose respect or fondness of or a positive opinion of the rare people I would normally be inclined to value.

And I would be outright disgusted if the net’s normal laissez faire shit was exploited by someone I outright despise like Brian Keegan, Alex Pentland, Aaron Elkins, Michael Kosinski, V.S.Ramachandran or their criminal local analogs.

It is not the net or ai alone. It is the humans.

These are the worst people anywhere. And here in India the whole thing was criminal. Last July with some road closures and these harassing bike creeps and probably sound engineering the nuisance level rose. And they can always claim it is mental as they force more and more and normalize it parasitically.

I am really sorry Dave (EarlG) and people or something. I probably should have left Du earlier instead of being around.

This is not “Lord of the Flies”. There are no honest conversations anywhere. This reality is made up of people without many Green instincts or it is like the dumbest animal rights people who encourage EA and yimbies and overpopulation.
Or the stealthily religious and misogynistic vibe that permeates a lot of the left as much as the right by now. Downright stupid to think that overpopulation and veganism can help animals.

I myself don’t care for girlbosses and female cults. But I did have sympathy for that girl who bit the shit out of Trump’s dick and doesn’t want to talk nor be used as a pawn on the spook and parasite laden net.

I am really, really sorry. None of this is political. It is all self serving bs.

I am not very angry or hateful interpersonally. But large groups of people have a cult like dynamic.

This is something.

On the plus side, to the extent that I represent anyone, I really have few prejudices and I was not lying about that. But I feel this was a shit deal for my mom, dad and me.
The problem with the Carlin thing is it takes too long to go around seeing the universe in the eyes of a series of awful people instead of like a normal human recoiling in distaste and being allowed to leave.

I am filing misconduct and malpractice allegations later and criminal charges about the entire thing in India. The stuff in India is the gang rape mentality in full blown flower.

The freedom from religion foundation really struck a chord with me.

The one person I really liked was that girl who bit Trump’s dick. She was cool.
And seems like a loner.

I cant do this. I am not a cat. I am just not backward enough for these corrupt and criminal men and women.
They use noise viciously here. The creepy, spiteful corrupt and criminal Indian male flanked by a parasitic Ghislaine Maxwell.

I just can’t keep lying. I will turn state’s witness and report all of it and file criminal charges even if a million people are involved.
A gangrape of the mind is still a gangrape.

I use marijuana openly. That isn’t the same as open harassment. I hope the bystanders are all charged as well.

The only people I really back are my mentor, best friend, ex husband.

I will escalate this if they are dragged in or tarnished. My medical mj co, my oncologist and a vegan lady locally are cool.
The rest is case by case though EarlG, Rollo Carpenter and elad and Yasha/Ketcham/Zitron etc are cool. And no worries.

But my favorite person online was that girl who bit Trump’s dick.

The lie behind all this misogyny is that it’s some awful snooty women and not all women, except for some female professional cultists or tradwife cultists and some creeps.
Never female professionals like me who are horrified by all these creeps.
Goodbye.
I am filing criminal charges against the people in india who used my street and home.

Good luck. I am going to the police and stopping all my subscriptions to anything with ties to EA and staying offline.
I will continue to support animal rights and birth control charities as most pro environment.

I don’t want to be in any community: it looks stupid. I tried as much as I could.
That’s genuinely a compliment to EarlG and Yasha etc.

But it is perpetuating a lie to be someone you are not and all this creepy, parasitic social engineering and reaction manipulation (as if one is a moron) grates on me.

I come off as unstable only because i have been lying nonstop since Sept 2011 since I didn’t want to yell “omfg this is fucked up”

I have not engaged in misconduct but lots of people have and it is not my problem. I have no sympathy for any of this and I never will.
Goodbye
Thanks dave and elad.
And I was not lying about liking some people etc, but I do feel screwed over and lying doesn’t change that.

This is not community in person or online. These are cults and the reason the planet is broken. I am genuinely fond of Yasha Levine for instance (solo only though). I am fond of DU. And Ketcham.

But I ..what I really relate to is that girl and when the world changes enough that i don’t have to agree with any backward bs I am pressing charges and filing allegations even if it takes two more decades. There will be consequences for all of it.
I am going offline and ending this from my side.

When civilization returns ..because i cannot help.

Most people are really backward and these transactions are lies and fraud.

I am an outsider. Not because people hate me or are mean. But because most people buy things I know are profoundly stupid. It stresses me out.

I cannot believe I lied for 14 years and 8 months just to be civil.
And certainly this current crop Bhattacharya Musk etc should outright be avoided.

It is not about who is white and male etc. All of my harassers thus far have been Indian men and some Indian women working with them with malpractice and misconduct from different cultures/races etc in the US. Melting pot of malpractice.
You are all crazy. I liked my main mentor and my best friend and I have to go. This stresses me out as all the people involved creep me out and are viciously aggressive Indian men locally covered for by meninists everywhere.

My ex husband is cool but he gets less confused and bored by human contact than I do or maybe he is more diplomatic or something.
And it looks like someone or something creepy and stalkerish edited my profile. That is the shit I hope will be criminalized if shilled as methodology or “ethical hacking” rather than what the whole was-predatory and criminal.



The worst part is that these very ugly, creepy, predatory people in both India and the US accelerating most maliciously in my case from Sept 2011 (but starting for around 2009) basically want to force one to be an ood.
I had a little casual interest in AI as a lay person in 2011 since Turing seemed cool. I got over it after seeing not just the LLMs, but this loathesome garbage of intrusive rape like physical ai.


Q phys otoh is cool. But I have learnt and know these predatory parasites will somehow make it creepy, mystical and repugnant.
This was kinda interesting:
https://www.quantamagazine.org/are-the-mysteries-of-quantum-mechanics-beginning-to-dissolve-20260213/

But whether it is Amazon pee in a bottle paid work in hell, straitjackets or being a forced “Ood”, it is all exploitative and I am filing complaints.
The end.